Cant Stop These Thoughts [LevixReader]

No matter how hard you tried, recently, you could not get him out of your mind. You thought that you could easily accept the fact that you were unrequitedly in love with your superior, but recently he would not leave your mind. And it’s not just simple stuff anymore, like the thought of hugging him, or maybe holding his hand and kissing his forehead.  

No, recently it had gotten a LOT worse, and you couldn’t seem to control it. Stuff like him grabbing your wrist and pulling you into a kiss, or pushing you against a wall and claiming your neck with kisses and bites, forcing moan after moan from your mouth, or him pushing you over his desk and-!

You interrupted your own thoughts and quickly slammed your head into the table in front of you.

Your friends all stopped their conversations and looked over at you, with your head still on the table. Moving your hands to either side of your head you mentally screamed at yourself.

‘How on earth can I think about my superior this way!?! This is getting out of control!!’

Sasha put her hand on your shoulder, tearing you away from your thoughts and causing you to look up at her, your face red from your previous thoughts.

Sasha looked at you showing her concern, “Are you alright, [f/n]…?”

Her words quickly reminded you of where you currently were, causing your eyes to widen and you to look at those at the table around you, who all still had their focus on you from your little ‘outburst’.

You quickly blushed and pushed some of your [h/l] [h/c] locks out of your face, “Yeah, I’m alright…” you looked at Sasha with a small smile, “Sorry about that, I’m going to go ahead and leave now.”

Sasha looked at you half-finished plate and brightened up a little bit, “does that mean that-!”

“Yes, you can have the rest of my dinner.” You finished her sentence with the answer she wanted and quickly made your way out of the dining hall.

As you stepped outside, you were thankful for the cool night air that brushed against your still warm skin. You walked out into the training field in hopes of clearing your mind from everything that had just happened.

“…gosh…[f/n] you can’t keep thinking about him like this…If this keeps up I might just end up like attacking him…” you thought out loud with a sigh, slightly giggling at the last part.

“And who is it that you might end up attacking, Cadet?”

That voice, you recognized it immediately, spinning around to face the owner of said voice in the smallest hope that it wasn’t him. Your eyes widened as you locked eyes with Levi. Of course it was him, the world wouldn’t allow you to get away with such thoughts without him somehow finding out.

After a few moments of standing there looking into his eyes, you unfroze and quickly saluted “S-sir!”

“You haven’t answered my question, Cadet.” He responded, coldly. Although for a moment you thought you saw the smallest of smirks grace his lips, but that was probably just your imagination.

“I-uh…I was just…” you stuttered through, weighing your options mentally. You were a terrible liar, and lying to him would probably just get you in more trouble than just telling him the truth. Taking a deep breath to steel your conviction you replied “I was thinking about you, sir…”

There was no reply, and as the seconds went on, your face grew increasingly hotter. Suddenly, he moved closer, towards your ear. Whispering in his response, “And what exactly were you thinking about me, Cadet [f/n]”

Your breath hitched in your throat as his breath tickled your ear and rolled down your neck, sending shivers down your spine. If possible, your face grew even hotter, you tried to respond, but as you opened your mouth to do so, no words came out.

“Well Cadet?” he said as he moved away a little bit to look you in the eyes again.

“I…I-I would…I ca-can’t say these th-things…in su-such a pub-public p-place, sir…!” You barely managed to stutter out, quickly look anywhere but at him as you fidgeted in your spot.

In a flash he grabbed your hand and dragged you with him towards the dorms. You almost fell at first, but as you regained your balance, you were practically thrown into a room. This time you actually did lose your balance and you fell onto the bed in the room, thankful that it was there to catch you.

As you were starting piece together where you were, you heard a click of the lock on the door. You glanced that way and made eye contact with Levi. Instantly your face was flooded with heat again, “Wh-what are we do-doing here…?” you asked, breaking eye contact again.

He made his way over to you and sat next to you on the bed, “It’s not a public place, so tell me what you were thinking, Cadet.”

You attempted to scoot away from him, but he quickly grabbed your arm and forced you even closer to him than you were before.

“I am not a patient man, Cadet [f/n],” his voice carried a tone of frustration, “Now tell me, or I will have to punish you.” He moved closer to your neck at this point and let out a small smirk that you couldn’t see.

“I…I wa-was thinking o-of ho-how…how I-I want to-to be in-involved with you…ro-romantically…” You said, getting softer as the sentence barley managed its way out of your shaking lips. You were scared of what he might do, how he might react. You became so scared that you could feel tears start to sting at the corners of your eyes. You began to mentally curse yourself for all the things you had ever thought about your superior, even the feelings of love, because at the moment they brought you so much pain and-

Lips, warm and soft, pressed against your own. You were pulled out of your thoughts and into the arms of the man you had just been cursing yourself over having feelings for. Your eyes were wide, and you stared at him, sitting there frozen as he moved his lips against yours. It took you a moment, but you finally responded, closing your eyes slowly and kissing back very cautiously.

Then he pulled away, and your eyes opened up again, to be met by Levi’s. Without even realizing it, you started to cry. He let out a small ‘tch’ as he moved his hand to your face to wipe away your tears. “I didn’t realize kissing you would make you cry, I thought it was what you wanted.” He sounded aggravated, but his tone held a sort of emotion you never thought you would hear from him, at least not directed at you.

“Ah…I-I didn’t mean to cry…it’s just…I’m really happy…” you say with a small smile gracing your lips as you bring your fingers up to them. “Th-thank you, Lance Corp-“

“Just call me Levi” He responded quickly.

“Ah…ok, Levi” you smiled again as his name left your lips. It felt like his name was made to be spoken by you, and that’s how he felt too.

“Hey, [f/n]…”

You looked up at him, in a bit of shock. ‘He didn’t call me cadet!’ you thought to yourself and smiled again, “Yes, Levi?”

He pulled you in for another kiss, and this time you participated from the start. When he moved away for a bit of air he said words you never thought you would be able to hear from him, “I love you.”